Sinking. restless anxious
I am married, to wonderful wife, have 2 great kids, with my ex, joint custody. Career that I love. But I cant sleep, i feel the need to run. I'm nostalgic for a past that was not real, only what I wanted to happen. I have a good life. But i lay awake and feel like I'm sinking, like if I left today no one would care. I am constantly fighting with my own internal monologue, I think of disappearing or just running away. I dont know how to fix it. My work and family has always brought me a sense of fulfillment, but now it just feels like I am failing. I do good at work and i good husband and father. but i just feel restless, like I have reached peak of some sort, and now i am falling.