Single...and not loving it.
As a matter of fact, I hate it. I want a boyfriend so badly it's depressing. I've had to deal with this almost all my life and now it is a bigger problem because 1) I don't know anybody around my own age anymore. People I went to school with have their own lives now and most are already taken, engaged, or married. 2) I'm very shy about making a move on guys because I'm afraid they will think I'm weird. 3) I'm very picky about guys. I don't see myself as drop-dead gorgeous, but I'm certainly not ugly, either. But I see even ugly people with boy/girlfriends and think, "How come THEY can get in a relationship and I can't?" I even get nervous about hanging out with friends sometimes, and I don't care to socialize a lot because I know people will talk about their bfs (or gfs), and obviously, I can't talk about mine because he doesn't exist. Even seeing posts about other people's bfs or gfs or that "___ is in a relationship" on Facebook really gets to me. It seems like everybody but me can get in a relationship like it's the easiest thing on Earth. It also seems like everywhere I go I see happy couples and it makes me feel like a total loser. I think I'm letting this control my life. Is this normal?