Should you relay you'r feelings to your best and only friend ?

All my life I have been a loner, a real loner. no friends, only aquaintences. Nobody to realy be able to talk to and so I have spent my whole life to date dealing with issues the best way I know how. As for relationships in the past? Well, whenever anyone has tried to get close I have hammered a wedge between us and ended up distancing myself from these people on a permanent basis. No-one has ever gotten close.. until 10 years ago.

My story begins 14 years ago and i can remember the day I first met her. I was attracted to her from the moment I saw here. A crush? No, not a crush, something else. An attraction I had never felt before. At first I thought it nothing more than a pretty face and sweet smile attraction, but realised quickly it was something I had never felt before in my entire life.

We became friends and over the course of a couple of years developed a bond. Now this bond is something I have never been able to describe. It's when you have something that you share between you that you do not share with anyone else. Perhaps trust, a powerful friendship, secrets not shared with others or maybe feelings for each other that cannot be put into mere words. Whatever this bond is, we have never spoken to each other about it, we just don't seem to need to. It's always there.

Around 10 years ago, she developed a relationship with another guy and that broke my heart. And I mean realy broke my heart! Never in all my life have I ever felt pain like that, nor do I ever want to again. Not being able to deal with this or tell her how I felt, I decided the best course of action was to end our friendship, break our bond, in the hope that these intense, burning feelings and emotions would die out. I did just that. The text messages from her that day were not pleasant, but I feel I deserved them for my action of weakness.

I can honestly and truely say with hand on heart not a day went by in 10 years when I didn't think about her, wonder how she was, was she married, kids, was she happy? The burning heartache never went away and eventually I just had to know how she was. The more I thought about her, the more intense the pain.

I plucked up the courage to go and see her expecting verbal abuse, a door slam on me or an evil silent glare. Instead she smiled and hugged me. She realy was pleased to see me.

I've been back in her life for a few weeks now and I still love her as much now as I did then and if only we could be together, I know I would do everything possible without question or hesitation to make her happy. I would worship the ground she walks on, treat her like the godess she is and dedicate the rest of my life solely to make her happy. The bond we had once is still there even now.
Do I risk losing her and our friendship or do I tell her..?