Should i seek help?
My problem of a long time is, should I go see a psychologist or not. I often feel like I can't handle my feelings anymore, but than again I always end up thinking "somebody needs help more than me, I don't want to bother them". But my feelings and thoughts won't go away on their own.
Anyway, some of my "symptoms" include:
-depression
-anger/rage. I'm not sure where it comes from. I just hate people/get irritated very easily. I have started yelling at people(who I feel have wronged me)in public spaces
-I get scared I might stab someone/push someone down the stairs if I know I would be able to do so/if there's the chance. It's not like I will do it, my mind just thinks it. I also fear people will suddenly stab me from behind/slit my throat in the bus/somebody will shoot me from a car
-I rehearse conversations by myself. I don't even realize I'm doing it sometimes. I will go to great lengths such as fake crying when I do this
There's more, but the post would be too long.
Anyway please leave your opinion, I'm serious&worried.