Should i move on???
Man, personally my relationship between me and my girlfriend is way downhill. We fight, she says i lie; which i think she comes up with things to seem like i'm lying. Anyway i messed up in this relationship and i know it. But what i'm concerned with is that were not together anymore and we're f**k buddies. We hang out alot, go to parties. But whats messed up is she loves me, but she's still in love with her ex and kinda wants to put me on reserve. Should i take that? Is this normal. I went to clubs, i lied about it but nothing else have i done. I feel though that if she would just trust me then i would have never went. We were at a party this weekend( her friends) and she just decided she would flirt with this older guy there. I knew something was up. I let it slide for a bit, because i was a guest to her party and i loved her, but then she got drunk and this dude said he had a tattoo on his penis. Well she wanted to see. I was pissed about this, but let it slide; she said i've never seen it before. Well as time goes by im sitten in the living room chillen, and she says stay here for a minute i'll be back. I was drunk and it didn't hit me on how wierd that sounds. So few minutes later i step outside to see my ex bent over in front of this guy, and she moves up real fast and he takes off running! It took everything in my body to rip his head off! Why didn't I? Is this normal? This girl was so hurt by what i did to her that she felt it right to take revenge; but since she won't believe what is the truth to be the truth and not a lie she makes me hurt 10 times as bad!! What should i do? I love her still. How?