Should i let my 43 yr old uncle inside of me?
Recently my uncle and I were helping my mom at her flower shop while my uncle was fixing things up , I was laid down on a tiny mat just on my cellphone. After my uncle finished and my mom went away to get us some food ,he climbed down and sat near me trying to tickle me and I got annoyed pretty fast and told him to stop and he did. Then my uncle decides to give me a little shoulder massage at first I didn't think anything of it because I like massages and what girl doesn't? I let him massage my shoulders then a horrible yet enticing taboo thought came to mind, I was completely relaxed after five minutes and my pussy began to throb sexually... was I seriously getting impure thoughts right now? I could let my uncle screw me but no that is completely immoral and yet we almost did just that as he proceeded to get bolder in his massage he put his hands under my shirt and rubbed slowly in circles getting closer to my side boob, I felt like a different person as my hormones took control over me. My uncle continued getting closer to my side boobs and he succeeded then I lifted myself up a bit higher being sexually aroused to let his hand glide almost towards my tits ,it felt amazing at first so I just laid there while he scooped my bra up and fondled me ,he then pressed his hard on against my back ...at this point I was frozen as he turned me around lifting my shirt sucking on my nipples making them hard making a 'mmm' sound each time. He then glided his hand downward massaging my vagina while continuing to suck on my boobs calling me a beautiful sexy woman, I was disgusted by myself yet turned on I stopped before it went any further when he decided to make out with me and shove his hand down my pants I stopped him. And that was that,i avoided him ever since and stopped attending family gatherings , I don't know what to say or even what to do with myself but move on and yet I can't help feel bad for wanting it again ...idk what to do honestly