Should i hurt myself because of this?

I have a severe problem controling inappropriate thoughts about a teacher I had in high school. I have OCD and Borderline Personality Disorder which just add to the stress. I was talking to a friend on Facebook in a private message a couple weeks ago about it because I really needed help cause I was worried about hurting him in a sexual manner. I had mentioned to her that I would rather hurt myself bad enough so I couldn't hurt him and she got worried and call the police. She gave them the whole FB conversation. I ended up in the mental hospital and they told the teacher the whole story. I'm out now and I really think I need to hurt myself. Another teacher that I still talk to said he is scared now. I felt really bad before he knew and I feel even worse now. I really think I should hurt myself now. Should I?

Yes you should, you are a very bad person! 7
Yes, you deserve to be punished! 3
Yes, you are crazy! 3
No, that's stupid! 30
No 39
No, but I think you're crazy 16
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  • misca

    Do you have a reason to hurt yourself? I think your personality disorder is just trying to convince you, that you have a good reason to hurt yourself. Hurting yourself won't help the situation. It's more likely going to make it worse for you and others.

    I'm not a professional psychologist, but I based my opinion on my life. I don't want to harm others in any way. Hurting myself would make others worried (which I consider one way of harming them), thus I will never hurt myself intentionally.

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    • sokrazy

      I want to hurt myself because i feel really bad about this

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      • lufa

        we all do shit that we feel really stupid about after. Don't hurt anyone including yourself-accept that it is your mental disorder that is causing you to think or do certain things you wouldn't otherwise.

        find a therapist and they will help you with your problems and make you feel normal.

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  • get help then its not you alone with this worry, you have been honest and it has slapped you in the face. so keep the lines open and talk to the appropriate people who can help you , your friends dont have to know your confidentials thats for you and yr therapist

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    • sokrazy

      I call her my friend. It was a counseler from my treatment center that I went to a long time ago

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  • Sleep_Connoisseur

    It depends on what you feel. If living is so much of a stressful thing, let go. Keep in mind that if there is a hell, an if your non-religious just think hypothetically, that you may be going from one small hell to a greater one with more pain. Im in no way religious but you never know what may be true.

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  • opal-leaves

    I hate the word crazy, yes I am clincally diagnosed bipolar, anxious, and hyper (ADHD) and I have also been hospitalized as well however don't call yourself that. JUst take a moment and think. Think about your thoughts & ask yourself: are they normal thoughts? Think about why you want to hurt someone and try to figure out where that anger came from. I used to hurt myself too (still do) but it's usually because there just isn't anyother way or outlet to describe my pain so I cut. But it's foolish and I know I shouldn't do it (logically: cutting doesn't solve anything, if anything it creates an extra problem) so just breath take a step back and smoke weed if you have to. Just please don't hurt anyone and dont hurt yourself. you got this bro

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  • Thepilotofepic

    You should chop your arm off

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  • Alfie

    You need to get yourself some help before you really hurt youself.

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  • absolutelytotallynotnormal

    Don't hurt yourself, find professional help instead! Visit your GP, a psychologist or a psychiatrist, they all know how to help you further. Hurting yourself and hauling your worries about won't get you anywhere, they will only make you feel more miserable in the end.

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  • NaziToast

    Hurting your self does not seem constructive.

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  • BrokenSympathy

    U don need to hurt yourself :( everyone has their ups and downs. But hurting yourself isn't going to help. Hugs help :) lots and lots of hugs <3

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  • Corleone

    Please get into therapy. It would help you sort things out. No one will be happier if you hurt yourself.

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  • StarScream18

    Hurting yourself is never ever the answer. No matter what the issue. Go talk to a counselor right away, or if you feel you are going to hurt yourself and or someone else call 911 right away.

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  • Avant-Garde

    Your friend sounds horrible! It's be normal to be sexual attracted to others. Does your friend/ authorities know that you have OCD and BPD? They should at least be more understanding. I feel for you and it's a shame that you're being treated terribly because of it.

    Is the stress why you want to hurt yourself or is it another reason?

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  • zilla

    Don't hurt yourself. The answer to "should I hurt myself?" is, and will always be no. The reason for this is it will not help anyone, including you.

    I agree that the best thing to do is therapy. Talking these things out will help you to gain a more healthy perspective on situations such as this, and to find healthier ways to deal with them.

    I've been there. Even if you feel like hurting yourself would somehow satisfy you right here and now - resist. Because later on, when you no longer feel that impulse, you'll feel more accentuated feelings such as regret.

    Resist, and later you will feel more empowered because you were able to control self-destructive impulses.

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  • I don't even understand why you think those thoughts are bad in the first place. It is normal to have a teacher you want to fuck. It sounds like you are embarassed that the school found out how you feel. Its normal to be embarassed about someone finding out you want to fuck them, especally if its your teacher or someone you have to see all the time. My advise is if your embarassed with these things then switch schools. Also you have a crappy friend for giving away all the details of this situation. I think the only thing abnormal is thinking those thoughts are bad. Honestly I have thoughts of killing people I know and I never have felt the least bit bad over it. I highly doubt I would ever do it. I just think about that stuff. I asked on here if thinking that stuff was normal before and apperantly it is. Also people with OCD it is normal to think inapproperate thoughts and obsess over them. The way to get rid of that is to stop caring about thinking those things and realize that those thoughts are normal.

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  • savemefrommyself

    why would u hurt yourself over another person? live your life youll forget about it. what do u mean youll hurt him sexually? like bite him or scratch him or do u mean like grab a knife from the night stand and stab him type shit? woow

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  • pegger

    naaah best thing you can do is just get therapy :)

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  • Redheadedveggie

    Would the teacher want you to hurt your self??!!! if they do then they are a rubbish teacher, so i'm guessing they wouldn't!!! so you should hurt your self you should defo talk to some one who knows what there doing and they they can help!! xxx

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  • Ever see Fatal Attraction? Thats about a female borderline obsessed. Go to a psychiatrist and tell them about it.

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  • Aleks85

    I'm gonna say yes, you deserve to be punished.

    Because I know you won't and you're just another attention seeker.

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    • sokrazy

      I wish I was just another attention seeker because then i wouldn't have so many scars to prove otherwise.

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      • Aleks85

        My apologies, I recently told a story on here of my own and a lot of people called me a liar and a troll. If what you say is true I don't know what could be said to help you.

        You definitely should not hurt yourself. If you like older guys there's better avenue's for that than this particular teacher. If it's just this specific teacher then it's something you're going to have to let go. You'll find someone more appropriate to crush on.

        As far as your OCD you need to see a psychiatrist, they have medication that can at least help that.

        I have Clinical Depression and Social Phobia which causes Panic attacks sometimes. Medication helped me a lot.

        All I can say is a lot of us have different challenges to over come and don't be afraid to ask for help. Hurting yourself or others is never an option, you should never think that way.

        Good luck.

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