Should i break up with my girlfriend? the strangeness is almost unreal
I realize I should take the internets opinion with a grain of salt but Im so conflicted and I need to hear some guidance. To make it simple I'm just going to list some facts about the relationship.
-Im a 23yr old male from the usa
-she's a 32 yr old Russian
-she's VERY BEAUTIFULand is like an alien in the sense that she could easily pass for 21yrs old
-She's SUPER introverted and before knowing me somehow was still a virgin (@32!!) (verified by me, definitely the truth)
- Im very out going , and through knowing me I've seen a TINY bit more of her spirit open up
- turns out that in her early years she was so isolated that she developed a general hate for humanity and even wanted to become a serial killer.
- she says and i can see that this is no longer her desire
-however she still has an extreme lack of empathy, I am completely the opposite
-and she still mixes the fantasy of sex and death together , however it's her own death , the
idea of her being hurt is satisfying to her in fantasy but not reality.
_even though she looks and dresses like an angel, she enjoys explicitly violent music.
-Ive found some light in the opposite of all this because i always felt like i was helping her be more of warrior for the light side, and she seems to have a slight interest in escaping the dark side.
-she has a notable lack of interest, a very plain lifestyle , exercise ,reading,her cat,poker, healthy but unusually plain food (NO SPICE , NO SAUCE) .
-She never really instigates conversation
-I find myself battling between wondering how much of my love for her is lustful and how much is soul
- I think alot of it is lustful as she has such an angelic look
- but if her soul was turned into a robot that i could speak too, i would be bored
-however there is still a level of admiring her innocence and being the man to "show her the world " is rather fulfilling because she hasn't tried many things, or done many activities.
- she doesn't work , she sometime plays poker and she owns her own "lofty" house.
-she studies poker and through playing a few times week somehow pays the bills on her own
AS YOU CAN SEE IT'S ALL VERY STRANGE
I have never been so conflicted , beyond being her bf , I'm like her one true friend so there is also the sadness of breaking her heart.
And the lustful attraction makes me really confused. i do enjoy going out the town with her , but I especially enjoy the ability to be intimate with her more than anything.
Break up with her! RUN ! GET OUT ! | 3 | |
Stay with her, grow together and inspire/learn from each other. | 3 | |
Break up with her but see if she'd be into still seeing each other intimately less often | 1 | |
Give it some more time , if you're still conflicted , probably best to end it | 3 |