Sexual confusion... my fault?

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I am a straight married man. I love my wife and our amazing son. I have a horrible past of sexual misconduct. I was molested and raped at 13 and then found myself attracted to other boys and girls. I dated a lot of girls/women from High school on, but never acted out on my gay urges. When I was in college I had sexual encounters with a couple of men. I hated every second of it, after the fact. It wasn't regret as much as I just honestly didn't enjoy it. I have put that behind me, but can't get over my addiction to gay porn. My wife has found it before and I have explained my situation. I don't like gay looking men, but athletic "normal" guys being dominated. I know its because I see that as making them look weak. I am very insecure about my body and envy their looks. I don't actually look at the porn for the sex anymore, just the bodies. Is this normal?

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  • peterr
    10 years ago

    I bet you would like looking at me naked. My cock is cut and 7 inches long. Most men love it.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    You sound more gay curious than gay. And that you were raped as a young man may be part of it. Do you think you need to speak with a therapist about that experience?

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  • Jim_Pfoss
    15 years ago

    For some reason, people don't believe that others can fantasize about things they have no interest in making happen in the veritable world.
    But everyone does it.
    They just need to be thought police. It's too bad it's your wife, or you could just tell her to shove off.

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