Sex feellings
i admire a girl who is very intelligent and innocent. I think about her day and night. i always think of her whenever i ge t some filthy feelings about sex so that i could stop myself from thinking about sexy girls. somehow i manage to stay away from porn sites but when the feeling becomes strong and it gets over me, i'm then not able to control myself. i end up ejaculating <masturbate>.
but when i come back to her, to my senses, i feel very guilty and sometimes even cry. i want to get rid of these things. i want to become a great man. i don't want these kind of feelings come into my mind and distract me. even my health started to decline because of these masturbation and all the things and feelings related to each other. Is it normal?