Sex drive is on cloud 9
Ok so ive been masturbating since 2010 it all started with a back massager lol it was the first time i ever masturbated and it was AMAZING i was 15 i did it like 3 times that day to every sexual thought i had on that christmas.Ive been masturbating ever since and now i believe im addicted. When im alone and when i get mad or sad or in trouble and think about real life situations i have to deal with i ejaculate. I will watch porn saying to myself im not gonna masturbate three hours later the end result is i do but sometimes ill stop myself but then a couple days later im back at it.I have had sex with females but have never ejaculated weird huh? i have even faked an orgasm ugh.. i wish i never put myself so down to where i have to do this. Porn is my enemy i watch it on my phone etc.. I jus love the sensation of ejaculation its like my drug. I will never go to a doctor to get help there is not enough time in the day and im not spending the money on it. I feel like i can deal with this myself but i think ill relapse one day like seeing porn and getting mesmerized lol is it normal to watch porn for hours,hump a bed and ejaculate while watching porn and ejaculate? i have humped a female while she was sleeping and fondled her breasts then later on ejaculated i gotta stop and MAN UP and have sex the natural way