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First of all english is not my mother tongue language so excuse my language
I lived in a Muslim community
I grew up in certain customs and traditions then I started questioning everything and nothing make sens to me anymore especially if you're a woman
In such a schizophrenic society
There's no freedom of expression and acceptance of the other
I was engaged in a feminist association and a freethinkers one
And it's just bulshit
Just a cover
Bunch of people who just have sex
Which is against Islamic religion
So basically
It's just a fake cover to get what you want
I'm feeling lost
And I don't know what to do
I've been through a lot
and I can't trust anyone anymore
I can't be myself anyone I'm trying to
I've punished myself for letting people in
People that didn't deserve to be there
I've cutted my skin
I'm feeling so lonely and so lost
I feel like an outcast all the time everywhere
I can't relate to anything
I'm the wallflower that sits there and watch people
Maybe that what made can see through people
Read between lines and read body language
I'm so tired of this
Maybe it's just that I don't know what I want in life yet but I can't figure out that

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    I can relate. I cut myself too. I feel lonely all the time. I want people but I’m also scared of them.
    I don’t live in a Muslim country but I’ve heard a lot about them. I’m so sorry you have to live in that kind of misogynistic and backwards and narrow environment. Is there any way you can move?

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  • IrishPotato
    5 years ago

    You could move.

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  • lordofopinions
    5 years ago

    You mentioned once being a Muslim woman. Muslim women are very restricted on what they can do and are treated as property. The word of a Muslim woman is half the weight of a Muslim man.

    Getting used to a non-Muslim way of life may seem strange. Maybe make a woman friend to guide you and make you feel more connected.

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  • McBean
    5 years ago

    I'm sorry that you feel bad. Cutting yourself usually indicates Borderline Personality Disorder. You can read more on Wikipedia.org Click this -> https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder

    If you are a refuge from an Islamic country, please be tolerant of yourself. It will take much effort on your part to build a new life. You are doing the right thing by making online friends.

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  • RoseIsabella
    5 years ago

    Don't cut yourself.

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