Second cousins ?

well in march i went to mexico. i stay'dd there for almost one month. i was really lookinq forward to it. i went with my cousinn anf family. okay so ever since i was like 8 i really like my second cousin(eloe)( i think he's my second cousin we shared a qreat qrandma?) that was lil kids stuff. and there was another second cousin(omar) that always used to follow me. and he would always qet on my nervous. i used to hate him. but now that i just went again to mexico and seen them both and i fell in love with them both. i hanged out with eloe for the first couples of days, i felt lyk never before. he was sweet, hot, and amzing. in the other hand i hanged out with omar too. omar finally asked me out. eloe qot mad and socked omar? and now i fell bad. i love them both! its been a month that i came back. and i cant stop thinking of them. i still talk to them every day.
now can someone please tell my if its badd or not?
my family is really close. i don't know how there would react.
weried much ? yeah i noe!
please help me!
thanks