S having sex with your cousin normal?

Let's start from the begin where my life had changed dramatically this had to do with my older cousin who was three year's older than i am. Our family wear very close we would gather together for any kind of occation ,birthdays ,holidays,Trips you name if we would do it. My cousin Hannah and I were very close we understand each other like no other person could understand anyone. We were able to tell each other secret that no one in our family knew. The distance between us was not that distant we would go to each other house a lot and would be able to talk and talk for hours.We would sometimes stay passed our bed time just to spend some time together it would happen quite a lot.My cousin Hannah was thirteen years old and I John was eleven years old. My cousin was very beautiful her eyes were hazel her hair was light brown, to me she was perfect. I've known since the being that she had a crush on me but not any type of crush a crush on her own cousin.i've known for quite some time. She would sometimes stare at me for so much time and i would do the same exact thing but we never spoke our true feeling. About a four month has passed it was already April everyone in our family knew it was cousin Giovanni birthday he was going to be seventeen today. We were invited so we went to his birthday party there I saw my cousin Hannah who was joyful to see me again we went somewhere to talk about her life and how it has completely change , her mother and father have been fighting so much that they have decided to get a divorce , well i did not see this coming i was very surprised to hear that they were divorced. Hannah was not the same since the last time I saw her she had completely change. She not the usual happy girl I knew .As you know she still had a major crush on me she would alway be staring and giggling and smiling at me. Hanna and I went to the living room to watch some tv during that time we were completely alone. My cousin asked me this strange question have I kiss anyone yet and I told her that a personal question. She responded to me saying don't we tell each other anything well. I had to tell her that I had not kissed anyone yet. she suggested that we should kiss. I told her you're my cousin we can't do this Hannah she looked at me with this look that told me you're going to do it. well I had no choice but to kiss her lips tasted like strawberry to me and i like it. Things were heating up between the two of us and this was not very good out of nowhere she unbuckled my belt and unzip my pants I was like what are you doing Hannah ,she responded saying i want to have sex with you I alway have thought that you're wear cute. I have had a crush on you since -were very small. During that night we ended up having sex knowing that we were both virgins and knowing what we were doing was forbidding in any family. During the next few week's we would have sex together. we wold do it like three to four time a night.my life changed when it had happend.Three months later my mother received a phone call from my father that his job is moving to a new location and that we were going to have to move to Florida. Things had changed dramatically since now I am living in a new state, with no friend , no family what so ever.I was fourteen years old new to this state.during the first couple of week's I met a few friend and began getting used to this life style .During the time I received a phone call from my mother which she told me I have some great news to tell you your cousin Hannah is coming to stay with us for awhile. I was modified cause the last time I saw her we were having sex so much I could not count the amount of time we did it and I was surprise she was coming to visit me. i week later my mother and I drove off to the airport to go pick up my cousin Hannah. We waited for an hour until she had arrived and when she saw me she yelled and ran right toward me and jump on top of me . she told me she have missed me so much now we are reunited. We drove back home to our house and once we got home my mother told Hannah that she would be sleeping in john room I was shocked cause I was going to be sharing my room with my cousin. it's been four years since i saw my cousin and the incident had happened she has became this beautiful women that i can not begin to describe. Well it was already ten o'clock now and we went to sleep me and Hannah. My cousin could not stop looking at me ,she told me I've been waiting so long to be with you again john.Out of nowhere we kissed and ended up haveing sex again.She asked me if I had a condom and I said I do hold up let me get on from the restroom when I got back she was in her panties and bra my god her tits have gotten bigger. i went under the sheet and went in put on my condom. Afterwords I got on top of Hannah and placed my ***** into her ***** and we began having fucking thing between us was heating up and i could hear her moan , she was moaning so loud that i had to place my hand on her mouth so no one could hear us.She told me to fuck her faster and faster I fucked her . we switch position and now she was on top of me her ass was bouncing and bouncing I was at the point that I wanted to cum but i could not do that so I said to her get off I'm about to cum. she got off and boom i released it all. out of no where she started to give me a blow job wow did not know she was so talented. We ended the night and got dressed again,right afterwords we fell asleep that night .for the pass couple of week's we been having sex and sex and sex. Things for us wear getting very good but we had to keep our relationship a secret. Whenever my mother went out we would be completely alone one night my cousin ask me if she would look good in a lingerie I told her I'm not sure let's see it. she told me go wait in the bed room and get under the cover and have your eyes close. so for the time being i did what I was told out of nowhere she came in and she was wearing this red lingerie I was so Horney that I grab her and began kissing her and we ended up having sex once again during that time we actually had sex three to four time. Couple of weeks later she told me she was tired of keeping our secret from our family and I told her we can't tell our family cause they would never speak to us again ever.

what should we do now?