Regret leaving her? is it normal?

43% Normal
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I have severe anxiety disorder and bipolar depression which lasts months but then disappears and then comes back etc

Anyway she lost her close friend to a car accident and I was losing my mind. I had severe anxiety attacks each day, I locked myself in a janitors closet at work and cried nearly every day. I wasn't coping well and knew she needed my support but I couldn't do anything.

So I ghosted her. Stupid thing to do maybe but I couldn't tell her about my issues so I held them all in while she cried over her friend but her being down made me suicidal and so I left.

I actually met another girl already while with her and she made me laugh so much. We didn't have much in common but she was immature I guess and made me laugh and it took my mind off my issues so when I left my girlfriend of 8 years, I got with this girl.

It immediately turned into a relationship and then after months I realized we clashed A TON. she tends to also prefer to be out with friends instead of with me and it feels weird and I miss my ex like mad. I realize I was a fool. She was actually perfection like a freaking princess and I ditched her for this girl who is not at all good for me.

I don't know what to do... I ghosted my ex I have no idea what to do.

Is it normal?

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43% Normal
Based on 14 votes (6 yes)
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Comments ( 11 )
  • noid
    5 years ago

    I think your ex recently posted the same story including you contacting her after all that. Or maybe I'm just remembering a similar story.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      Which story?????

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      • noid
        5 years ago

        I just remember reading about this recently couldn't of been more than a couple weeks ago.

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  • barefoot_on_the_sand
    5 years ago

    No use crying over spilt milk.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      The love of my life isn't spilt milk

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  • RoseIsabella
    5 years ago

    This sounds a little too familiar.

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    • drat
      5 years ago

      the whole "perfection" and "princess" thing? it no longer sounds so special when you see how commonly people are described as such!! 😅

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      • RoseIsabella
        5 years ago

        I had to give you a thumbs up.

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  • paracetamol
    5 years ago

    Get on pills for bipolar and anxiety and depression. First fix ur life.

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  • WewLaddie
    5 years ago

    It happens. There really isn't much you can do about it by the sound of it; you'll just have to slowly come to terms. And also try to work on managing your BPD so you can become more stable

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  • dontknowdontcare
    5 years ago

    You have been with her for 8 years, yet she doesn't know anything about your anxiety...

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