Really sad... is it normal to do this.

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I'm not going to tell you who I am...

I'm a guy, and I say that I'm bi and straight to people when its so obvious that I'm gay...

I know some of you straight guys may think I'm disgusting but I'm not, I don't act like a girl and I will never act like one.. But I will always know I am attracted to guys...

I faked myself as a girl online and I fell in love with this guy DAn. I lied so many things.. Told him I was going to meet him in real. We're already in a relationship on fb but I'm so guilty... :(

No words can describe how hurt I feel atm cause I am going to have
to leave him soon.. I don't know what to do. I will never date a guy, cause I'm certain I want kids.. But I don't know how to get this feeling away..

Every single night I pray to god that I could just wake up as a girl.. I really wish that I was. I hope I will be given a chance one day. Maybe there will be reincarnation.. I don't know.. But all I wanna say is.. I am going to miss Darren so much.... I wish I was that girl. Life is so unfair sometimes... But u gotta accept it.

Don't be disgusted. I'm not doing anything to make u feel that way. Though I am crying at the moment.. Myabe there will be something out there for me... And I hope that my next life will be the life what I expect to be..

I really wish I was a girl.. But that wish couldn't be granted... :'(

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  • [Old Memory]
    12 years ago

    Aw, hun... My heart goes out to you... First off, as much as it hurts, I'd say your best bet is to let the guy go, find confidence in being who you are, and seek out a relationship as the I-don't- give-a-fuck-what-you-think-of-me gay man. :) Keep positive, and love yourself. You're a good person, and honestly, the right person would think so too.

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    • somebodysomebodeh
      12 years ago

      thank you for those words. really means allot ^^ and love yourself too. i'll def keep that in mind ^^

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  • Jackshakey
    12 years ago

    This is a story about my uncle. He lied to himself for about 15 years and denied being gay. He even got with a woman and had a kid but eventually he came out and he was so much happier. It may have been a bad move to lie to this guy but you must tell him the truth. Even if he doesn't want to be with you, there's always someone for everyone and you've got to keep this in mind. Also being gay isn't disgusting at all unless you're an insensitive homophobe! There's really nothing wrong with it so just tell this guy and find someone else. Join dating websites. It may sound stupid but there's a lot of gay dating sites ( or so I'm guessing) so you'll find someone. Also about the kids thing there's always surrogacy or adoption to consider.

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