Reality, hate, 4chan, pot, age, and depression.

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I've noticed that as time goes by, I progressively hate life more and more. It's getting harder and harder to actually enjoy the things that I say I enjoy. I feel like lights used to be brighter, so to speak.

I now browse 4chan, digg, etc. like all fucking day desperately searching for laughs, or god forbid something that actually turns me on enough to get a boner to either pester my pothead lazy gf to fuck me, and if that doesn't work after about 2 or 3 mins I'll go off and spank it by myself so she doesn't have to bother.

I browse profiles on myspace, wishing and hoping that I'd meet great people like I see getting online all day, I don't even care, I look at men & women, not sexually either, just to I guess 'live vicariously through their profiles' as sad as that sounds. I end up never messaging or commenting though, as I feel like I'm just a diseased, worthless, unfit piece of shit, and that I'd only end up bothering, depressing, or creeping them out.

But even then, I can see those parties that I've been to, and see the people I want to be, and even they seem like they've got the same lack of spark in their eyes.

It's like one day I'm actually going to stop breathing, and not care enough to do it again.

I just want to feel alive again. Not sad, or pathetic.

Is this normal?

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  • BloodRedAndTrue
    10 years ago

    cheer up man, i feel the same way

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  • goodbyegalaxy
    14 years ago

    Sounds like you need a change. Try something new. Shake shit up.

    Write down the things you do on a daily basis, and why. If you can't give good reasons for doing these things, then it's time to reassess what you're doing.

    Like all feelings, negative feelings come from within. You can psyche yourself out and pretend that all these external factors are just bringing you down, and that everything in life has just become too dull to entertain you. When it comes down to it, it's your perceptions of these things that are bringing you down.

    Clean a dirty lens and you'll be amazed at the clarity and vibrance of things.

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  • Artanis186
    15 years ago

    Ya, it's normal.. to me I guess. I want to feel this way too, I am not happy a whole lot, but imo, too happy, too often, I don't care about people or anything, I want it to be where I don't smile at lame shit. I just do for some reason, I don't know why. I like being depressed, it helps me think. And I like thinking ^.^

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    • fizzbitchandgun
      15 years ago

      I think it's normal... but you know, try o actually occupy yourself without 4chan, however great it is, are you at uni or what? Otherwise yeah, you insist on sticking with your worthless gf then I guess you are a peice of shit..

      get off your ass and do something.

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