Pushing people away after sex
I lost my virginity at 16 and it wasn't on the best of terms. I was very drunk and it was with a 20 year old that took advantage of me. He didn't rape me, but he did know that I was intoxicated. I don't really remember it that much only bits and pieces. Since then, I've had 4 other sexual partners and none of them were people I've dated. I ended up having sex with my good friend while we were both intoxicated and now I feel very vulnerable and I'm pushing him away. I still want to be friends but I feel awkward in the situation. All the people I've had sex with I've pushed away. Is this normal ?