Public humiliation fantasy

I want to be stripped nude and have my wrists, ankles and neck shackled to a public wooden display platform covered in cum so that I can feel it my skin slide against it.
I want to be forced to lick and suck on toes.
I want to choke on their dicks while they force cum down my throat so hard it spills out my nose.

I want them to put a muzzle on me, hoist me onto one of the guys' dicks, forcing me to spread my legs and feel his muscular chest under the palms of my shackled hands. I want him to grab my waist and slide his throbbing cock into my ass while I wimper like a dog. I want another guy to come behind me, grab my neck with one hand stroke my penis with the other push his penis into my now stretching ass. I want him breath into my ear and tell me "good girl, yeah, that's a very good girl".

Back on the cum platform again, I want to have my head shoved into a bucket of piss with a bare foot on the back of my head while being fucked in the ass by people taking turns.
I want to be forced to suck a dog penis and be anally fucked by another dog while they film, point and laugh at me.

I want them to pin me down on my back and tie me spread-eagle so that they can piss on my face, chest and stomach. I want to have a large throbbing dick inserted into my ass and have him pee inside it so that it squirts out my ass and down my inner thighs,
I want them to shove shit down my throat with their hands so that I gag. I want them to say "quick gagging you dirty little bitch". I want them to smear it all over my body and call me a dirty whore. I want them to piss on it so that it slides off and makes a pool of shit-water. I want them to collect it into a bucket and push my head into it until it drips down my throat and nose.

After their done and I'm crying, coughing, covered in shitwater with the taste of penis and ass left in my mouth and an extreme feeling of inferiority, I want them to throw me in the mud in a pig pen. I want them to shove my face in it with a boot so hard that it goes up my nose and down my throat. I want them to call me a dirty pig slut that belongs in the mud. I want to be tormented, made fun of and raped.

What should I do? I've been like this for years.