Problems with girls
i started college last year and met a girl and i liked her, i thought that maybe she was into me cause she was so charismatic and would smile to me when we spoke. it was to late when i realized she was like that with everybody. so i developed a crush on her. eventually we where separated in our classes so i stopped seeing her. this year we where reunited in our classes and i went to speak with her asked her number and all. started to talk to her more often until i realized that she was not into me and felt a great amount of pain. so i told her that i liked her (thinking that expressing myself would make me feel better) and she gently said no, and told me there was some one else she was interested in. so it was okay until she became friend of my friends, now i have to see her everyday. i dont want to see her cause i want to forget her but now i have to. and i get so jealous because everytime i see her she is hugging other guys or when i see her body, i feel bad. the thing is that when i get home i really feel bad and i cannot help it. i get to a point when i feel so bad (after hours analyzing stuff) that my brain gets so tired and i stop feeling at all. eventually i start feeling bad and the next day i see her again and the cycle starts again. this is really a problem cause most of the day i really feel bad, i have the same feeling as if a loved one passed away. i feel like there is something missing that i will never ever have. this is a problem cause i really have to study a lot (in med school) and i cant. and im trying and trying to analyze things in my head and this gets me really tired. and end up solving nothing.