Possibly aromantic?
When I was a child, I enjoyed romance stories, ect. Some little girls have the personal fantasy of marrying a prince or something, but to me, it never felt personal.
Romance and falling in love has always just seemed like the happy ending for other people.
The idea of I, myself, falling in love has always seemed incomprehensible. When I was a child, I thought I'd get it when I was a teenager, but my feelings haven't changed.
In fact, now even romance in media bores me most of the time, unless it's really deep.
As a child, I just assumed that I'd end up in a relationship eventually. Now that I realize that SO's don't usually just fall into people's laps, I'm a bit relieved.
I can't tell whether I'm truly aromantic, or just cynical.
When I see a couple, I think, "Well good for them, they look pretty happy...now." But I've never felt envious, still only relieved that I wasn't in their shoes.
There's always the mocking thoughts of, "I wonder when they'll fight next. After a few years, you'll probably feel unappreciated. HUMDRUM."
Btw, I took some online tests and quizzes. They said that I had high levels of avoidance and schizoid personality disorder. That probably started around age 11.
That's technically bad, but I'm not worried. I'm just curious as to what you guys think.