Plz tell me if this is normal

Okay, Last year in august I started dating my bestfriend(bad idea.i know)
on some days it would be great and i felt like he loved me and everything felt right but on some days he would be on facebook on his status like i need new texting buddies and inbox me if you look good but i looked past that then like in october he's on there like "man, f#&%ing with my bro's makes you always remember to have a condom on you" i'm like wtf do you know i can see this ??!

then in december my grandma that i was very close to past away and i felt like i was losing it,i didn't know how to feel, i felt anger towards everyone and everything, i cried for hours strait in a day, i wouldn't talk to really anyone and i even thought about hurting myself but then i thought my ma wouldn't want me to hurt myself just because she's not with me anymore so i just held it all in.

like a couple days after my birthday i was in class and i was on facebook and his status said "talking to her" and i'm like i'm not her so who is she ?
so to be petty and make him mad i said thinking about him which was no1
but i guess he thought it was and just ended our facebook marriage and then i texted him trying to talk about it and he just wouldn't talk to me at all,
i called atleast 3 times everyday that week but i finally gave up
i felt so lost like i had no one,

but i didn't know how to control my feelings and i just couldn't handle being angry without doing something about it.that was back in december and we started talking or texting again and we're bestfriends again but idk what to do because i still like/love him so much more then just a bestfriend,

in the between months while we weren't speaking i had a dream about him/us atleast 4 times a week and woke up crying a couple times, i feel like i'm crazy and idk how to control feelings and i'm tired of having these stupid dreams. . .is this normal ?

plz if you have something negative to say plz don't say anything just say it's not normal
and i know facebook ruin's stuff
and it was childish of us to be mad over something that happend on facebook .

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Comments ( 11 )
  • BfingIToucher

    He sounds extremely immature. Stay friends. He is not ready to be what you want him to be.

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  • sugacookie

    How old are you. Dear god! The guy is an ass. He knows he can play you. He knows no matter what he does you will always come back.
    Believe me. Lol I do the same thing to women. Not proud. Start hanging out with friends find new boys. Once he finds out u have new boys he will attempt to patch things up. But be strong and smash his ass to the ground. :)

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  • bucho's_butt

    You guys both seem really immature. I don't understand why you wrote this whole litany anyway. You answered your own question when you conceded what a bad idea it is to date your best friend. I did that after I graduated high school and things got so bad between the two of us that to this day I still hate her. Don't date your best friend. It's that simple.

    And hey, here's some other related advice that's going to save you a lot of anguish in the future: don't move in with your best friend(s). Ever. It's almost always a mistake and you'll end up hating them when things go south.

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  • ReginaFalange

    Stop waisting your time with that looser.
    It´s normal that you think he's worth it, but HE'S NOT.

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  • AnonymousCanada

    note to OP. i dont care how important your story is MAKE IT FUCKING SHORTER!!! i didnt even read it because if i wanted to sit here reading teh same shit for hours i would go pick up a goddamn book.

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  • zed

    I dated my best friend and that was exactly what happened. And when we broke up, he wasn't even upset or anything! In fact, he was watching a movie then. And what happened after the breakup was exactly what you described. But now, I really feel that you should just let it go and try not be as close as you guys were because he's not worth it. Hanging out with your friends is a really good way to forget about him and get over him! It will really keep your mind off things and in a while, you will then realise that, hey! I forgot about him already! You won't feel that bad anymore! Trust me girl, be strong, move on. There are tons of guys out there waiting for a perfect girl like you! (and ME!) :D cheer up!!

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  • nikkay22

    U r young. Move on.

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  • Ratso

    Dont worry about it
    Talk to him see if he'll tell u what went wrong
    And c if u can try again

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  • Cosmicgiggle

    Best friends that move to that next level are taking a toss of the coin risk. Once you have sex, things are never the same because there's no backing up. It is done. Being friends first can give you the intimacy of your dreams, because you already know each other very well.

    On the other hand, if feelings after sex aren't mutual, then the relationship may not be salvageable. I did it with my best friend nineteen years ago, and things went favorably. A nineteen year marriage with many ups and downs. But, there's no backing up once sex is part of the equation

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  • moe

    Ya just tell him yu still love him and see if he does too

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  • xerxe

    so long shit i didnt even bother readin ur story

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