Plz tell me if this is normal
Okay, Last year in august I started dating my bestfriend(bad idea.i know)
on some days it would be great and i felt like he loved me and everything felt right but on some days he would be on facebook on his status like i need new texting buddies and inbox me if you look good but i looked past that then like in october he's on there like "man, f#&%ing with my bro's makes you always remember to have a condom on you" i'm like wtf do you know i can see this ??!
then in december my grandma that i was very close to past away and i felt like i was losing it,i didn't know how to feel, i felt anger towards everyone and everything, i cried for hours strait in a day, i wouldn't talk to really anyone and i even thought about hurting myself but then i thought my ma wouldn't want me to hurt myself just because she's not with me anymore so i just held it all in.
like a couple days after my birthday i was in class and i was on facebook and his status said "talking to her" and i'm like i'm not her so who is she ?
so to be petty and make him mad i said thinking about him which was no1
but i guess he thought it was and just ended our facebook marriage and then i texted him trying to talk about it and he just wouldn't talk to me at all,
i called atleast 3 times everyday that week but i finally gave up
i felt so lost like i had no one,
but i didn't know how to control my feelings and i just couldn't handle being angry without doing something about it.that was back in december and we started talking or texting again and we're bestfriends again but idk what to do because i still like/love him so much more then just a bestfriend,
in the between months while we weren't speaking i had a dream about him/us atleast 4 times a week and woke up crying a couple times, i feel like i'm crazy and idk how to control feelings and i'm tired of having these stupid dreams. . .is this normal ?
plz if you have something negative to say plz don't say anything just say it's not normal
and i know facebook ruin's stuff
and it was childish of us to be mad over something that happend on facebook .