Orgasms

before i knew what sex was, i began orgasming. it began with dreams. the, in waking, i began to come. but i never touched myself. i was having orgasms through my mind, purely by thought. i became obsessed with orgasm. almost like an addiction. but in private. i was ashamed of my thirtst for so i ended up shutting myself off from polite company. i was never intimate with anyone. dressed very conservatively. etcetera.... i ended up having sex in february and became even more obsessed. i spent 90 percent of my time in bed. i have slept with well over 200 people by now. i am no longer ashamed of it. i am posting more to ask why i am this way. not how i can change.