Only happy when anorexic
Is it normal to think the only time I'm happy with my body is when I'm starving myself and can see my bones? I'm anorexic, btw.
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xllewellynx
i just got discharged for ED treatment (restricting, over exercising, purging but not bingeing!). And after five weeks i can tell you:
No, it's not normal.It's a lifelong recovery.
Not only are you killing your body, you're killing your brain.. my memory started going before I went into treatment. I saw girls who couldn't remember anything after reading one page.. It's sad.
I hope you find a facility in your area and get help.
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leahquestions
it's not normal.A few years ago, I suffered until I ended up in the hospitol and was told to eat or die? it affected my heart...thought I was pretty then. I was forced to stand in front of the mirror naked...it wasn't pretty , i thought to myself how weak I am. to start eating I had to eat baby food-- 3 tsp at a time then I was full, I forced myself to eat until I could actually eat normal food which took a while.. I had to live for my kids-- mine was caused by depression and not eating was a control factor for me because i felt like that was the only thing in my life i could control.....gaining weight wasn't much fun but I started to exersize and felt better..bony isn't pretty and it will affedt your organs eventually.. i now eat small meals frequently, still suffer from depressin off and on but you need to look deep inside and decide on health....most men don't like bony either...good luck...
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hotchickie81
Thank you so much. I'm glad you're doing better now. I've been struggling for YEARS. See, right now I am 129 lbs, and I'm 5'8"... and I HATE my body. I was 121 last month, and felt great. I know it doesn't sound like much, but it's a huge difference for me. And to be honest with you, even at 121 I still wanted to lose more weight!
I know I have a problem. Everyone thinks I look so pretty and that I'm thin, but I don't see it. When I look in the mirror, I see a FAT PIG!!! Seriously.
Sometimes I get so mad at myself, I grab onto my skin (usually on my belly) and tear at it. I often have scratches on my belly cause I think it's so fat and gross. I can't seem to control myself.
It's a big problem, I know. But I don't want to go on meds cause A: I can't afford them, and B: I seriously don't want to gain weight.
I also suffer from anxiety, depression, and OCD.
Thankfully I don't have any kids to worry about. I'm thinking I probably should never have any anyway cause I'm pretty unstable.
Thanks for taking the time to respond. I actually feel like you people on here are my friends. <3
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WarriorOfLight79
Same with me! Anorexic age 12 -14, feeding tube and everythng, but was happy and didn't feel like i was suffering.
When not anorexic, always depressed.
Age 30-38 anorexic again, and happier than ever. When I try to recover I get depressed. So, I just let myself be anorexic. No one is bothered by it. Doctors mention concern since I'm considered severely undeweight, but they don't pester me, since blood work is good, and they know I am happy. Less stress this way for everyone. If this is what it takes for me to enjoy life, whatever. I just accept it and live my life.
Good luck.
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Avant-Garde
It made me happy too, but then a few months ago I "force" myself to eat three meals a day and not obsess about calories, all because my doctor and her workers were getting on my ass about my "weight loss".... I miss that feeling...
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wtfpeople
It is normal... It is hard for women to think that they are attractive if they don't look like a super model. Truth is, most men want a woman with some "Meat" on their bones. You should seek counseling for your anorexia. You wont feel very "Happy" when you die from it sweet heart
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ennui
that's normal as that is a symptom of the anorexia. you think you are in control when you see your bones, when in all actuality, it's killing you, or could kill you if you can't somehow stop the progression. it's much like any other addiction--makes you feel good, but can kill you when it gets to extremes. i was anorexic for all of my teens and a few years into my adult life, but fortunately don't care now as much if i see my bones or not, though i can't forget what it feels like to be happy in the way you are describing.
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[Old Memory]
Hmm you sound fat and ugly. By the sounds of your name you must agree, how quaint ^_^
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so_damn_unpretty
Wow Eva is a total bitch... she really doesnt know what its like to have an ed... its totally normal for someone who struggles with an ed to feel this way. but its definately not true. you have to find things (completely unrelated to numbers, excercise or food)that interests you and make you smile. Explore that and you'll find that you can be happy and eat a proper diet (not starving yourself!)
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oceangirl16
I think i started having that problem about a month ago... I havent gone to the hospital for it (yet) but i just dont know how to stop! every time i eat ANYTHING i feel like a giant, yellow, snotty, lumpy snake is slithering around in my stomach and making me fatter by the second! I wont eat anything but a low calorie non fat diet bar every couple of days and ever THAT is hard for me. I just drink about 2-4 bottles of water every day and always paint my nails so people cant see that the nail beds are blue...
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Scoutbelle
That is NOT normal at all. Do you have any idea what you're doing when you starve yourself? You make yourself look disgusting. I'm not saying this just because anorexia is unhealthy, you actually look gross. A thin layer of fur grows all over your body. Your bones jut out. Your skin turns yellowish and your hair becomes weak and limp and your nails look awful. For your own sake and for other people PLEASE START EATING.
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