Once a junkie, always a junkie?
Long story short. Got strung out on heroin when I was 18. Got clean with methadone 6 years ago. Been totally clean for 5 years. Something has really started getting to me tho. How people treat me differently if they know Im in methadone. The friends I told tend not to leave me alone in their houses or cars and right when a doctor hears what I'm taking it for, he automatically discounts any pain I am in as drug seeking behavior, and any symptoms I have to either the drug itself or withdrawal from it. None of which effect me. It just blew my mind that when I went in with an appendicitis they thought I was faking trying to get morphine and Ialmost died because of it. Then tthere's the "holier than thou" assholes that say, "why don't u just quit taking it?" I gotta try so hard not to hit someone in the mouth for asking such a stupid rhetorical question