Old people frighten me.
Ever since I can remember I've been terrified of old people. It originally stemmed from my uneasyness whenever an older man was a little to friendly and would find it okay to put his arm on my back or rub my arm. Generally non of it ever felt overtly sexual to me, it just made me intensly uneasy.
I eventuall began to fear the senoirs in general. Watching them eat makes me want to vomit, they smell disgusting, they can be ignorant and daft and the prospect of being left alone made me cry. Luckily my tears got me out of that situation and I wasnt left alone.
When I'm around them I get on edge, snapping at one of my deartest friends who merely asked me why I was so nervous when we visited a Senoir home.
Everything about them makes me uncomfrotable and scares me. To the point that I don't look them in the eyes and will refuse to walk next to one.
I can't place it, but I'm also afraid of becoming like them and have openly decided to end my life before I'm stuck on dialysis or something else of the kind.
I know its rude but Old people make me run, and when I can't they make me edgy and hostile.
Tell me, is that normal?