Old feelings return
How does one deal with the reality of life after ten solid years drinking and doing drugs .. I'm only clean two weeks but I'm starting to worry about stuff I always blocked out .. Starting to think about everyone who fucked me over and how I'll get revenge .. My looks is starting to bother me more even down to my receding hair line I could go on and on but I don't wanna sound to crazy . All this stuff did bother me at one stage but I'd just drink smoke some weed and maby snort a line and these feelings are non existent. . I'm strongly thinking about just saying fuck it ill die an addict atleast my head wasn't tormented with my own thoughts .. How does one deal with all these feelings