Old feelings return

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How does one deal with the reality of life after ten solid years drinking and doing drugs .. I'm only clean two weeks but I'm starting to worry about stuff I always blocked out .. Starting to think about everyone who fucked me over and how I'll get revenge .. My looks is starting to bother me more even down to my receding hair line I could go on and on but I don't wanna sound to crazy . All this stuff did bother me at one stage but I'd just drink smoke some weed and maby snort a line and these feelings are non existent. . I'm strongly thinking about just saying fuck it ill die an addict atleast my head wasn't tormented with my own thoughts .. How does one deal with all these feelings

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  • RoseIsabella
    6 years ago

    Are you working a twelve step program? Do you have a sponsor, do you have a therapist? This isn't something that you can or should white knuckle your way through.

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  • barstool
    6 years ago

    See a doctor/psychiatrist/psychologist if you can. If you've got any hangups about doing that, you gotta get over that and take the plunge.
    It's a big change so of course you're going to need assistance to deal with it.
    It's hard, but you will adjust with time. And if you think back to when you were drinking and stuff, I'm guessing things were hardly perfect then. So, yeah you might feel overwhelmed with all these new thoughts and stuff, but just go easy on yourself and give yourself time for your brain to readjust. No matter how shit you're feeling now, you're 10x better off than you were 2 weeks ago.

    If you can't see a doctor, - and this sucks, but it's true, really exercise is the best thing that's going to help you out a lot.
    And try and drop the revenge stuff, eh? Try and leave that behind and build yourself up, rather than living in the past.
    Yeah...that's all I got, I know it's probably not much help. But those are the things that helped me.

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