Obsessed with my advisor

I'm a freshman in college, and I'm obsessed with my advisor. I'd be lying if I said there was no physical attraction to her, but that's not really the issue here. (I'm a female by the way). I've never been attracted to a woman before either.

But mainly I just love her like a mom. But advisors are so weird with getting involved with you personally. It's all gotta be "professional". Which sucks. I thought I could come to her about my issues and stuff but she kinda just rejected me and was like I can only offer you academic advice. I can't be your friend, I'm just your teacher. But oh my god I want her to be my mom so bad.

Now I LOVE my mom. My mom is my best friend. So I don't know why I seek another maternal type of attention. But it got so bad that I became dependent on my advisor. She felt awkward when I had a panic attack and she said I was manipulating her. I get back for a new semester thinking everything was fine, and come to find out, I have a new advisor. She's not even my teacher this semester. But that broke my heart. I've had panic attacks every day since they changed my advisors. Y'all just have no idea how much I love this woman. She's the most beautiful person I've ever met inside and out. And I could listen to her talk all day. I just want to hug her and kiss her and give her all my love. I just want her to love me back...(in a maternal kinda way)

But is this normal for a college kid? I mean you'd think I'd be grown out of this obsessive behavior by college