Obsessed with babies!!
I'm 18 next year and I want a baby NOW. Deep down I know I can't cope with one because I'm still a kid myself, and me and my boyfriends relationship is not stable so we can't bring up a chil, plus he's still in all that street life sh*t.
Although I tell myself I'm not ready, there's something else in me that tells me I must have a baby. Also me and my boyfriend have had many condom accidents which have resulted in me having to take the MAP (mornin after...) and although it is not the same as an abortion sometimes I feel like I've just aborted my child and it gets me upset.
I even think about whose eyes and nose and personality he/she would take after and I even imagine what that life would have been like.I walk past baby clothes and imagine me buying them for my child.
I feel like I'm obsessed and I don't know why I feel this way or if this is normal or just a phase. It doesn't make sense to me.
Sorry about the lenght but I just want another persons point of view.
Thanks