Not caring at all
Its basically very simple, I don't value social relations at all.
My brother and sister moved out of the house, they both keep saying how much they miss me but I never miss them or even think about them
When my grandpa died I simply didn't care, I used his death to get free from school and a free pass to game
I always prefer to be alone, if I am in company they usually bother me or annoy me (unless im high or drunk)
Futher I never even try to keep contacts with friends they always fade
I have currently 0 friends and only 1 person I care about but that's a other thing
Futher I have no intrest in school what so ever, personally I would like to game 24/7
I failed second year of my education and I simply didn't care or have any urge to improve anything
Also I show symptoms of a blader infection and have several wierd spots on my body what possibly could be dangerous if not treated, however I also do not care about This, I don't care with what or how I will end up becuase of those infection
Amd idk if this is relevant but I also have no cleu when I am lying to myself
Example: if I cry I have no cleu if I am sad or yust do it for attention, I can always stop crying whenever I want same with all facial expressions