Normal to like feeling intense rage ?
I have a really bad temper. At times I have beat up and hurt people I love like my brother my dad my step dad. I hate the after effects when I lose control of myself. It makes me feel like a hideous monster. But there are also times when I am deeply enraged I enjoy the feeling. It makes me feel very powerful even the worst pain I cannot feel, all I focus on is hurting whatever is in front of me. Sometimes I pour this rage onto the world. Sometimes I want chaos to rein. I want society to break down I want violence and bloodshed, fear and fighting I want things to be more simple like the old days before the world was so complex and everyone was free.