Normal to become depressed about not being able to do this?

The phenomenon that you are describing has a term for it: females with your desires are called girlfags. Girlfags love male homosexuals, male-on-male sex, and wish to be a male homosexual themselves.

I'm a male-to-female transgendered/feminine gay male myself (non-operative and non-hormone-replacement, but I'm fairly dainty for a male; I dress full-time en femme and keep my body smooth-shaven) who is a bottom for my masculine boyfriend, and I think it's neat that there are women like you. I'm sorry that you can't be an actual genetic-male homosexual, since you state that not being able to be that is making you depressed.

Since you love male-on-male sex so much, maybe you should look into finding a bisexual boyfriend/husband. There are a lot of bisexual males who would love to have a girlfriend/wife like you. Perhaps look into finding a three-way steady relationship between yourself and two males. At least this way you will be able to partake of male-on-male lovemaking firsthand in real life.

You have a functional clitoris, be happy.

You can get a strap on and use it...on a guy...

I'm depressed that I will never be a lesbian. :(

So you want to watch schools boy's sucking each other off?

maybe hook up with a bi guy who would be willing to do with another guy in front of you. that way, he could enjoy being with both you and another dude, if he's down for a threesome.

I think it's Normal and TOTALLY ok! I wish my ex would have been a bit more like you, would have been sooo hot to have her watch me get railed by a real man...or two. But alas it was not to be. I think it's Wonderful and wish there were more like you personally, have fun with it and enjoy.

As a gay guy I have dealt with this a far few times in real life. I have sometimes found friendships with girls like this ends because they develop a deep resentment that I don't become interested in them. But sometimes it works. Though if they get drunk enough nearly every single time they make an attempt ugh so awkward.

I think as long as you can separate fantasy from reality then you are fine.

Sounds cool to me. How as a male can I help you?

Ever watch two men sucking each other off?

Sorry that more people aren't taking this seriously. There are individuals that don't affiliate entirely with either gender. Obviously, I don't know you, and I'm certainly not going to try and classify your sexuality for you, but maybe try experimenting with occasionally going out dressed as a male. This doesn't mean you'll lose your femininity or anything, but you have every right to experiment and figure things out. If you feel embarrassed about it just go somewhere you won't run into anyone you know. I'm sure you can find a sexual partner who would enjoy being with you while you're dressed as a man, it's just up to you to be comfortable enough with your preferences to make it happen.
Best of luck, my friend. Do whatever makes you happy.

You can find a bi/gay man that will have sex with you and another man. Or you can get 2 gay men that will have sex if you wanna watch.

I like Peanut Butter

Sounds like you are a serious fag hag. I love being a man and would not want to be a woman (except for the chance at doing straight dudes). Being gay is just something I am for some reason.

Lol same. I used to be a gay/guy on sites like second life because it was a fun way of trolling but it also turned me on a lot. plus, straight girls even want you more if they think youre a (gay/metro) guy. that turned me on so much to have straight girls being attracted to me, but no way would i be lesbian cause I don't want lesbians or bi, then again i don't really want men or women all that much in real life. only when they perceive me as a male, it's a huge turn on. and thats pretty much impossible (not to say deceitful as well) in reality..

You and I, we're one, lady.
Here's the thing: on a more serious note, dont let it get to you. In fact, don't watch it too much, to where you get addicted to it, and get sick of it, but better yet, use the yaoi as more of a pasttime pleasure. Soon, you won't be as thinking about it as often

You can have a functional penis. It will just cost a SHIT TON of money sadly. But I don't think you'd want to be a guy fully. You just sound like you have a fetish.