Never weaned from baby bottle. what do u think?
I'm a 23yr/f medical student and model...I'm above average looking, am quite accomplished, come from a rather affluent family, and aside from my favorite pastime am completely normal. My friends would describe me as sweet and caring yet fun and very quirky....And I still enjoy a bottle and pacifier. My parents tired to wean me at 4, but I kept a secret stash of my baby brother's in the top of the linen closet. Parents travel 3/4 weeks out of the month and our nanny was a drinker...her habits made for smooth escapes to the kitchen to scale the cabinets for a nightly bottle. This continued until I was 7 when my brother was weaned, but by then I was earning a weekly allowance and made my way down to the corner store where I'd buy my own. I've always kept things secret, with one exception. My best friend in middle school and her family were completely non-judgmental on my comfort activities. I still enjoy a bottle. As a matter of fact, I have two sitting on my pillow calling my name.
For me, the bottle is like what cigarettes, alcohol, heroine, or sex is for some people...when I'm suckling on the bottle I'm taken to a place where nothing exists, not the world, no people, no extraneous thought, not even myself, just a warm safe comfortable feeling. The moment that bottle enters my mouth, my glare softens, my muscles relax, my mind releases it's grip on all worry, and the world melts away. Feels like God's pulling a warm blanket over me and kissing me goodnight. I hope THATs what heaven feels like.
You're not weird. People find comfort in worse places....and we are human and need comfort to survive...I can think of an infinite number of worse habits to have. Nor can I think of any better. Not hurting anyone nor myself, and it makes me happy...very happy. Seems like a damn good benefit to cost ratio to me.
What is your opinion of my situation?