Need help! is it normal that i've loved a girl for 5 years?
Hey everyone! I've had this thing bothering me for Years, that thing is the fact that I've been madly in love with a girl who I was foolish to mess around.
So the story begins. Brand new school, didnt know a single person! No one really talked to me at first, except a petite, wide-eyed brunette. She was gorgeous on the inside and out! We got talking throughout the months and we developed a further friendship. We ended up getting fairly close, but never a relationship, but it was so damned close to one! Everything was going well until the school holidays came around... 8 weeks of no contact whatsoever! The next school year came, and we were in separate classes, on the opposite side of the school!! I had no way to reach her! It's a bloody big school! So, a few mates and I went and tracked her down over the next couple of weeks, eventually finding out she was part of the deadbeat group. I had climbed from the kid who no one talked to, to becoming the one kid everyone loved and got on with! Except of course for this group. I had no admiration for them whatsoever, and sure as hell they hated my "Everyone's equal" attitude as Year Level Captain. When I saw who she was hanging out with, I was appauled. And when the time came for me to finally get some guts and fess up my love for her, I stuffed up and ended up running off like a pansy. As that school Year went by, I saw her ditch her Track and Field career as a distance runner, her soccer, her effort in school even! (Don't get me wrong, I fuck around in class but at least I do most of the work!!!)
That Year was awkward. So was the next. And the next. Until now. My Final Year. I went on an after-school excursion with her to see a play, and our bus was broken into, the robbers stole all of her stuff. It reduced her to tears, and me to anger. I tenderly embraced her, moved one hand up to the back of her head, and gently kissed her. We stared for a while, and all those memories came flooding back. We were talking again before we knew it. But. That hasn't changed the group she's hanging out with! I know she hasn't had sex with them before, but I don't care, it's not good enough! She's someone with originality and individuality! I see her all the time unhappy with the group she's in, she feels like she just doesn't fit (everyone says it) but yet she stays there! I want to help her, bring her back to me! Make her understand these people don't like her for who she truly is! I'm running out of time, but I need to tell her my true feelings! Is it normal to love someone so much for so long you'd take a bullet for them? I need to help this girl!