My wife won't do weird shit.

For an extra bit of sexual excitement I like to watch porn on the net. My wife is aware of this of course, but won't join me in doing some of the kinky shit that I want to act out on. Not that I blame her. I mean, some of this shit involves bodily fluids. So I go behind her back and take a crack whore ( a black one or a white one whichever one is out on the stroll) and go to this cheap motel that rents rooms by the hour and have at it. The shit I engage in with these crack whores ( No vaginal penetration of course. I'm not that crazy) in just too disgusting for even this site. So I won't elaborate (you're welcome). But don't a lot of married guys do this sort of thing? I don't even think of this as cheating. I love my wife. I treat these crack whores like toilet paper, sometimes literally. So love has nothing to do with my acting out some totally disgusting porn scene. This is separate from my marriage. My sneaky acting out weird disgusting shit with crack whores: Normal?