My weight bothers me a lot

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I'm honestly not sure if peoples' weight and appearance bothers other people as much as it bothers me. It's a very hush hush topic of conversation so I'm very in the dark on knowing if I'm alone with this or not.

My weight and the foods I eat is all I think about. I'm constantly looking at people skinnier than me as inspiration. All throughout the day I will think to myself about how fat my legs are and my arms are and my cheeks. I've lost 30 pounds and I've reached my goal weight but I still feel fat sloppy and ugly. I barely hang out with my friends lately because they eat a lot and I'm trying to change my habits so when I finally do hang out with them I fear of gaining my weight back. I gain weight extremely easy.

On the flip side I think I definitely have an addiction to food. When I slip up on my diet it's totally subconscious. While I'm in the midst of eating an entire bag of Taco Bell I don't even think about it or feel bad about it. Even before hand when I'm walking to the kitchen and I know what I'm about to do will sabotage my diet, it's like I can't even stop myself. Then I beat myself up immediately afterwards.

I've always had weight issues but my mind has been haunting me ever since I lost all my weight which was about 3 months ago. I'm not sure if I should get help in some sort of way or if other people do this…?

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  • CountessDouche
    9 years ago

    I think you are edging on disordered eating behavior, luckily you haven't fallen off the cliff. There are a few things about your post that concern me.

    First, the fact that you are unable to be happy with your body even though you have reached a healthy weight. It seems like your payoffs concerning weightloss are centered around both a physical ideal and the supposition that weightloss will effect your mental state, as opposed to JUST your health.

    Second, the fact that you are binging. Here, I see a problem with your diet. Healthy weight loss should include portion control and occasional indulgences, not complete denial followed by (unavoidable) binges. It is really best to find a balance between the two...that way, it won't so much involve feelings of reward, sneaky cheating, guilt...it won't be tied to your emotions, and you can actually enjoy the process of preparing and savoring and tasting the foods that aren't so great for you instread of just wolfing them down.

    I think your problems are related to the fact that you are achieving your weightloss goals through extreme restriction and denial, rather than a healthy balance. Also, you are tying your body image to your mental well being. This is kinda dangerous ground...maybe you should get some help before it becomes a real problem.

    That being said, congrats on the weight loss and reaching your goals. You should be really proud!!!

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  • Numbertwo
    9 years ago

    I like portly girls

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  • TareBear20
    9 years ago

    You should feel good about yourself. You lost 30 pounds!! Yay!!! ^______^ I bet you look fabulous!

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  • seekelp
    9 years ago

    Consider other qualities as inspiration.

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  • golden_showers
    9 years ago

    this is one thing you can do: get organic, raw apple cider vinegar. Before every meal add 1-2 tsp in a glass of water before every meal. Plus eat your calories when it's not night time. Those two things will help!

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  • di0rbby
    9 years ago

    My advice is to talk to your doctor about this. I have an eating disorder and everything you've just said sounds like you might be developing one. 30lbs is definitely a lot! And if you're not happy at your goal weight.. then something's wrong. Please talk to someone that can help you before things get worse.

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    No, stop. Learn to love yourself or you'll never find happiness with your body. I've had eating disorders before and the only things they are good for are 1. Making yourself feel like shit. and 2. Making you sick. So, many have died from them in the process of looking for perfection.

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  • -_-
    9 years ago

    Most people are bothered by their weight. Both genders as well. It's very common. I bet you look fine, you can have days where you eat a lot. Maybe you should maintain a routine where you know you're going to stay healthy? Exercise?

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  • kelili
    9 years ago

    My weight has never bothered me. I'm small and has never put on much weight. I hope that you'll be okay.

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