My regrets

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Long story short I was a teenager with no friends. and I might have suffered ocd back then, well I do now anyway. I discovered girls and porn and all that good stuff. I desperately wanted a blowjob but had no girlfriend or even the social skills so I tried it myself. I did this maybe 3 times as I can remember this was around 8th grade. I did others things all by myself stopped within a month i think because it made me feel bad and lowered my self esteem. growing older and viewing what i did differently I regret what I did.

I have even become depressed and suffer anxiety and more ocd. I am told kids experiment but I never thought i would be one. I cant stop thinking about this. Im completely straight and love everything about women, but I can't help really terrible and unmanly. I have had a girlfriend since then. I admit I was really stupid and didn't think back then and had a one track mind, but I can't get out of this funk. comments?

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  • shade_ilmaendu
    11 years ago

    Lots and lots of kids experiment, it's natural. How can you know if you go for something or not unless you try it? (Though I draw the line at certain things: scat, beastiality, shit that's plain NO.)

    And If you're saying you sucked yourself off, I think a lot of guys would be jealous because that takes some flexibility.

    As a female, I wish I could eat myself out. D: That would be so fun

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  • mscuuriouss
    11 years ago

    Giving yourself pleasure in any way is not gay. Ppl throw that around so much it's ridiculous. Gay is strictly about WHO you're partaking pleasure with, and requires a second party. You can even do things with the opposite sex that may seem like 'gay' but it is full hetero sex and not gay! As far as you feeling bad about anything; you shouldn't. You need to learn to embrace everything about you.

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  • butterfly825
    13 years ago

    as a girl, I did some stuff in 8th grade too!! don't feel bad you're sooo normal :)

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  • Merlot
    13 years ago

    You shouldn't feel too bad. Kids do experiment; especially around that age. It's no different from masturbating, which is also normal, and it shouldn't make you feel any less manly. It's normal to want to feel pleasure.

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  • [Old Memory]
    13 years ago

    Ur kinda of a fag

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