My mom has alzheimer's, is it normal that i prefer that she dies?

My grandma had Alzheimer's, schizophrenia and cancer at the same time and although the Alzheimer's was obvious, it took back seat to the other things.

What I'm going to say isn't exactly what you mean, but I do know what you mean. I'm not glad she died, far from it, but I'm glad the Alzheimer's didn't get the chance to advance to her not knowing me. We were very, very close and I didn't want the "Long Goodbye" of many little deaths of memory. I can understand anyone else not wanting it. My grandma always seemed to ask things over and over and she once went through five family member's names (two of them female) before she got to my name but I've not doubt she knew who I was.

Last year I had an experience of someone I knew extremely well no longer knowing who I was. Me and our mutual friends found it more distressing even than we imagined. I'm really very sorry this is happening to you, especially after having been through it myself last year.

Watching someone slowly die is a hell of a lot worse then an "ALL OF A SUDDEN...". You know? My dad died while I was preforming CPR on him (sudden massive heart attack and we were home alone together when I found him). Anyway, I've had that experience and then I've had the experience of my grandmother dying over a period of six months. Slowly, she became delusional and forget us. All she wanted was to die too, she would scream that an ambulance was outside to take her body away or tell my uncle to read a scroll on the wall (she was seeing things) that had "instructions to get to heaven" because she didn't have her glasses (my uncle would reply, "Ahh, but Meme, it is in French..."). All I wanted was for her to die and be out of the misery. She had gone from a proud, vivacious, loving, spirited woman of her day to a shadow of her former self. I knew she'd have never wanted to be seen in such a state. She was always incredibly independent. I can't begin to imagine the pain of years, standing by and watching. I'd say your feelings are perfectly normal. It's a part of being human.

yes terrible to see the progression, my gran got it young (62) she would have died inside if she knew what she was doing, her hygene and appearance gone to pot and all the rest, she died at 72, was sad

I can relate, even though my granny didn't had Aözheimers. The last weeks that she was "alive" was spent in pain and agony and she begged for "help"

I did wished for her to die and cursed myself for not being able to come up with a safe way (Both for her sake and mine) To put her out of her suffering.

Even dad sat with her when she was asleep and commented that the Doctors even had a block on the liquid morphine to prevent relatives from giving her an OD.

I have promised both my Mum and my dad to help them if they ever gets in a situation where their lives are no longer worth living.

My own mother is showing early signs of Alzheimers. It tears me apart yet i can't say if when it gets to the point of her not remembering me or anyone else if i'd want her to die. Right now i would say no, I'll still need her. But I've heard stories of people feeling the same as you, I just can't judge.

It's horrible seeing that person but not really seeing that person anymore.

My Auntie got to the point that she didn't know where she lived anymore.