My mind always makes me feel guilty. iin?

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For some reason, my mind is always trying make me feel guilty about everything I do. For example, if I'm not doing my work very well I feel guilty, and when I am I'm not working hard enough. The worst of all is that my mind makes me think that every single black dot is a small animal and if I am not constantly checking all parts of my body I will accidentally kill one of them by injuring them and having them suffer to death. I already know that most insects have no nociceptors (one of the requirements for pain) but I consider the possibility that I am wrong and that I will be causing the insect to suffer. This makes me terrified to do almost anything. For example, when I am walking, I have to constantly check my feet to make sure that I did not step on any insects, and if I fail to check I feel extremely guilty and start blaming myself. I like to eat rice and have some green tea sometimes (being Chinese) and I constantly worry whether there was some living thing caught inside a grain or tea packet or something like that when I cook it. My other OCD symptoms also kick in and make the entire process even more troublesome. If it isn't worrying about causing suffering it's work, my hobbies, social, etc.

Is this normal to be like this, in which everything you do will make you guilty?

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  • squirrelgirl
    10 years ago

    You most definitely have OCD. I used to have it myself, though my fears were more about getting sick rather than accidentally killing things. I can tell you from experience that Medication can make the symptoms disappear. I recommend seeing a psychiatrist if you haven't already.

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  • Isabella80s
    10 years ago

    Oh dear, sounds difficult to have to deal with! You're aware that you're having some OCD symptoms. I would say next step is get really informed about the condition. It's not that uncommon. Right now it sounds like paranoia is screwing with your life a bit - so it's time for you to reign it in. You can do it, but it will be difficult. Sometimes imagination and paranoia can really silence rationality, but it is possible to get to a point where they're more balanced. I speak from experience!

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  • [Old Memory]
    10 years ago

    My mind always questions my actions, decides guilt, and then shifts it onto someone else.

    What a wonderful world.

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  • NotStrangeBird
    10 years ago

    I guess you're not a fan of lobster then?

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    • dirtybirdy
      10 years ago

      *lobstah

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      • NotStrangeBird
        10 years ago

        Mud-Bug

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  • 3rdXsTheCharm
    10 years ago

    I feel bad for almost everything and I have to rationalize to myself why it's not a big deal until I believe it or else I drive myself nuts. Things will be on my mind hours after it happened just nagging at me until I do something or think something to express it and the feeling goes away. Idk if that's ocd but fuck, it's annoying.

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  • tacolord
    10 years ago

    I feel like that too but with people. I feel like i always disappoint everyome with my clumsiness and selfishness and i feel like i need to please everyone (not in a sexual way haha) just to make them feel happy. My tip is to let yourself know that you love bugs and nature, and that accidents are part of nature, thus you should worry not about accidents, because they WILL happen :)

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  • Shrunk
    10 years ago

    Oh yeah, I'm kind of like that too. I often feel bad for "burning" inanimate things when cooking, or that bugs have gotten onto the hot surfaces and burned alive. I can't even pick flowers or anything because it feels like I am maiming the plant, that it may not feel pain like we do, but in other ways that we cant perceive (not to worry you more). I've even let mosquitoes drink my blood because I can't kill or hurt them, I feel they have just as much right to life as any living thing, no matter how annoying they might be... While I still don't purposely kill anything, I don't feel quite as anxious/guilty as you are describing anymore, it may depend on your age, but I think you should talk to your doctor if it is bother you and interfering with your life

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