My job makes me insane

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I work in the meat department of a grocery store, I'm 19 in college with a major in operations information systems. I need the money from the job but it's starting to make me feel weird and unhealthy. They treat me like shit, middle age men working 25 hours a week in a run down grocery store meat department, I know I got myself here but i am so busy with school to keep a real job. I've got too a weird point when I go in, everything gets all bright and I start to sweat if I know I have work later that day I'm miserable all day, and once I get there I become a different person. I almost black out and become a shell of Myself, I get sick to the point of vomit. My hearing gets distorted and I think of all the ways to kill myself in the back room and how all the people would have to deal Witt that the rest of their lives. I don't talk or say much just go about my buisness but in my head is an orray of vulgar slurs towards everyone in my path but I go into this miserable shell inside myself and do my best to not kill myself or black out.

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  • thegypsysailor
    9 years ago

    At one point in my life I was considering a career change. After 11 months of 6 hours a day, six days a week, I became a certified electronics technician and was offered a job with IT&T. They took the graduates they were wooing to the place where we would be working to show us what and where we'd be working. The parking lot was larger than that at a sports arena. The building was the largest single story building I've ever seen. Inside the door was a bank of time clocks and the work benches extended for what seemed like miles. 9 to 5, 5 days a week at $32 something an hour (in the 80's), not bad money.
    I got physically ill (nausea, head aches, angry and mean, all the time, etc.) when I saw the inside of the building, and remained that way (24/7) until I decided I couldn't take the job. Then I was instantly well.
    Yeah, I understand.
    Best thing for your health is to find another job; not easy, but probably necessary.

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    • Karmasbitch
      9 years ago

      Wise man.

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  • gummy_jr
    9 years ago

    This is not healthy at all man. I know it won't be easy, but I suggest that you find another job and one that you'll enjoy. Your mental and physical health are pretty at risk here.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    There isn't anything you can do, working sucks, just the plain truth of it. Unless you're an athlete or a rock star, working sucks. I don't talk to anybody at my job, its mostly women that I have nothing in common with, so why bother.

    Yes sir, working sure does suck.

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  • Avant-Garde
    9 years ago

    It could be that you have and/or are developing Extreme Chemical Sensitivity Syndrome. I have it too. http://discovermagazine.com/2013/nov/13-allergic-life

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  • TheInsignificantGirl
    9 years ago

    Have you had other jobs before? And have you had adverse reactions to them? Maybe you're overworking yourself, with college and a job. Stress can bring on suicidal thoughts and general brain fucked-up-ness.

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  • Fingersniffer
    9 years ago

    I had a couple jobs that drove me insane and off the wall and were fucking stupid enough to say no to me quitting that I just walked out in them hahaaaa! I begged for less hours but yet just gave me more and exsince I was so obedient and a good worker but no means no when I need to move on to bigger and better oppurtunitues!!

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  • Barracuda
    9 years ago

    retail sucks. hey work sucks for a lot of folk. ive seen grown men working in retail stores and i do not want to go there with that kind of thinking.

    i dont know them i cant judge them. i dont know what happened in their life that led to them working petty hours a week just to ake ends meet.

    it gets depressing when you think about it. but try not to. honestly, you will give off a bad vibe, and othres will feel it.

    but yeah, your state of mind is understaandable, and a lot more common than you think

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