My girlfriend isn't upset that she may never see me again...

It was almost our one-year anniversary. I was so head-over-heels in love with her that I was ready to marry her on the spot. Not really. But we definitely made plans for a future together all the time. Spoke of weddings and our future children's names. Most of it for fun, but she and I both knew that we meant it. I truly believed she was my soulmate, and so did she.

Not long ago, she calls me and tells me that she's quit her job. I was proud of her descision because I knew that she hated it, but I started to get worried. She started applying for other jobs around the area. I watched as she was rejected one after another and growing more and more hopeless.

Then, she gives me the news: she's moving back home with her parents, several states away. She says she isn't coming back. She's applying for jobs in her hometown. She's packing all her things and leaving for good. I know she couldn't stop this from happening. I can't be mad at her for it. But all the while she hasn't once expressed that she will miss anything here. Not even me.

I am torn up Inside. I know she has been through a lot and I want to be there to support her. I have even been helping her pack. But when I have cried every time I'm alone (sometimes nearly breaking down in public spaces) since I found out the news, but she hasn't even uttered so much as an "I'll miss you." Then I can't help but feel like she never even loved me to begin with. i know I can't make her stay, but why isn't she even pretending that she wants to?