My father is control me
i'm 26 and live with my father i have been diagnosis with schizophrenia and social anxiety i dont talk to no one and mind my own business.
my father drinks like 4 40's a day and a pack of ciggs a day and he act a fool start talking negative about eveything saying things like he getting tired of me living here and stuff he buy sex from women witch i never have done in my life.
i get so tired of listeing to him everytime he wants something he call my name over and over and over and over till i come if i dont come he get's mad about it and the things he have done in his was bad he use to do crack and everything and talk about the women he had fun with in his past really i dont care i just want to leave and be able to control my own life with him telling me what to do and when to do it and if i dont he get's mad and start talking about kicking me out knowing i have social problems i cant surive with social problems.
i know i'm 26 and yes this is sad but damn i wish i would of killed my self years ago really i do.
its not only him but my whole family he gossip about what i do and everything to everyone and i feel like i cant live my life the way i want to and he been doing this for years sense i was young.
my brother and sister and mother hate him cause he ruin my mother so badly now she talking to her self even when i call her she talk to her self.
i'm trying to get a solo job so i can move out and stay away from him for the rest of my remaing life.
now tell me this how is a person sapose to grow if no one teach them how am i sapose to konw if no one teach me when i was younger and yet sense i'm older and have only little no one well teach me i feel dead inside.
i had friends with father's who would teach them how to get women and why and would teach them the important's of life no one in my life never teach me anything are tell me anything just want to control me how sick are these people.
well i said enough.