My family thinks i'm an idiot.
This is a call for advice more than anything. I just don't know what to do. My entire family thinks That I'm stupid, or immature. This probably stems from my childhood as is always do anything to make other people smile. I was as carefree as any other child. I never wished to speak of anything serious, I never wanted to be serious. To this day everyone treats me like the same child. I'm just in the back of everyone's mind. My mother although she hasn't said it thinks I'm an idiot. One night I overheard her and my drunk brother talking and she said I wasn't anything special. I don't believe that I am special, I don't believe I could be, but to hear my mother say it hurt. I have a 3.8 gpa and my other talks like she'll be glad if I even pass through high school. I don't think gpa actually means anything, besides that I understand what's being taught but it's just shows how little my mother cares. A 3.8 is in the place where graduating from highschool isn't even a concern. But my mother still acts like I'm on the edge of becoming a dropout. According to her I'm lazy, and don't do anything. The only thing she cares about is me getting a job. I'll go months without costing friends but the times I wish to stay out late my mom acts like I'm trying to live at other peoples houses. It's come to the point where it's affecting my friendships and alienating me from my friends. People invite me to stay over because they want me to stay over but she views it as me lining someone else's house more. I like my house I'm content but of course is rather stay at a friends, I have nothing to do at home. I can't get a job because no one will hire me. I asked my current boss who has hired me under the table for a recommendation, my guidance counselor and my favorite teachers, and no one will hire me. I'm not a dick who tries who is too good for any job. I've never recieved a call back. Not even from mcdonalds, Burger King, or Dunkin donuts, literally a minute drive from my house. When I'm at home I literally spend hours studying or reading, drawing or doing homework, something productive but my mom acts like I'm wasting my life.
My sister seems to be my best friend because she's the only one who I think sees me as intelligent. I'm not saying I'm a genius but I know she'd back me up if people were calling me an idiot. I do anger her though because we do disagree on things as any siblings do.
But my older brother who I rarely see treats me like a 12 year old. I've changed so much since he's left to the marines but to him I have nothing. I suck at everything and I do not have his respect. I don't try to put out there my scholastic interest to him because I personally think I am humble. But it's just so hard to hear someone call you an idiot when you know your not. I just can't take this anymore.
My cousins all treat me like a little kid. I never talk about science, my love for math, and literature with them because I know they won't care. It's constant small talk and video games with them. I'm not allowed to show that I've matured to anyone. My family alone keeps me afraid of glory. I want to accomplish something in life, but I don't think it'll ever be enough to gain my families respect. I could win a fucking oscar or become a billionaire but I'd never gain any form of respect.
The problem is, that while I do have very high hopes, and ambitions for my own life. My family would be happy with me just getting a decent job. Nobody is expecting me to do anything in life. I am a flat character to everyone who surrounds me. I do not see my family in my future because they don't think I'll have one.
Any advice would be helpful.