My deepest desire
I would give anything to be super model gorgeous. I am a female. I'm average weight, but dont where it well, i think im fat but maybe im not. Im not pretty , in fact i find myself alieny and ugly but I have been told different times i was pretty so i know im not horrible. anyways i am obsessed with models, sexy girl pics and thinspos. I lust after them but in a jealous kind of way. Im totally straight btw. I would honestly sell my soul to be beautiful. I dunno if that means anything to you but it kind of freaks me out. even if hell hounds were going to tear me up and rip me to shreds in exactly ten yrs in exchange .i would.
is that normal?