My dad died less than a week ago, but im ok since the funeral

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We were four people family, mom, dad, brother and me..
My dad wasn't the best father in the world, but he was caring.. After a first attempt and some vague threats he finally committed suicide at home. i was sleeping on Sunday morning with my boyfriend at home, my mom founds him hanged and we quickly cut the rope, then my boyfriend performed CPR until the paramedics arrived, but it was too late..

Well the deal is, my family cried a lot, but me.. I just cried occasionally when my bf makes me talk about it to relief, and during the funeral.. But now? I really feel a little peace, every second is easiest to say "he's dead" or talking about... and i did not hated my dad, we may not had the closest father-daughter relationship, but we shared a lot.. I was worried at first because I'm going to college next year, but my bf solved it all, and now i just feel better, like, he's resting at peace... even when it was a suicide, its like it would eventually happen and i feel it just finally happened..

When i think of him, i just remember his smile, and i laugh a bit.. Only when im around my family mom or brother i feel kinda sad..

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  • hanover
    8 years ago

    What are the girst 3 letters in funeral? FUN !!!
    Really tho, funerals i think are ultimately designed to help you get closure and are the first major step toward getting on with your life, which im sure is exactly what ur dad would want. We all have a right to feel better, so dont be hard on yourself about it.

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  • college
    8 years ago

    Grieving is unique to each individual.

    I too came from a family of four that shrunk down to a family of three when my brother completed suicide.

    During the first few months, I felt okay with periodic spurts of grief (the type when you legitimately don't know if you'll ever stop crying).

    I suppose what I'm trying to say is that whatever you're feeling (or not feeling) is normal.

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  • flyingnostalgia
    8 years ago

    This is really sad :(

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