My brother and i are both adults, why would he do this?
I'm a 28 year old female. I'm 7 years older than my brother who is 21. We've never had a close relationship, we are more like close acquaintances. I hadn't visited my parent's home for several months, I live two hours away and my brother still lives at home with my parent's. When I went down to visit a week ago and spend time with my family my brother was drinking a few beers that evening and I decided to drink a few with him. After having a few beers we decided to go outside to smoke a cigarette and it was getting late probably around 11 PM. We were just talking with each other but then it got weird after a little bit. Idk if he was drunk or what but he asked me if I wanted to walk to the barn down the road. I said, umm.. no why would I want to do that it's dark and creepy and it's getting late and I'm tired. He said oh, come on. It freaked me out and immediately my intuition started to kick in and I felt like there was something else going on. I quickly put out my cigarette and went into the house where it felt safer. He followed me inside, our parent's were already in bed, he said hey sis, I have a weird question for you, can I play with your breasts maybe more? I was like umm.. not just NO but HE** NO, are you joking around? I asked him how much he'd had to drink and he said 9 beers. At that point I'd had 3. (I should note that he drinks beer in excess, like a case or more every other day, so I don't think 9 beers would have gotten him drunk?) It freaked me out beyond freaked me out. When I told him NO he got very angry with me and called me a *itch. He then went into his room and slammed the door. I was so scared that I packed up my things very hurriedly and left my parents house immediately. I drove the 2 hours home that night in the pouring down rain because I was afraid that he was going to come out of his room if I went to sleep and try to rape me. I was going to be sleeping on my parent's couch in the living room all alone. My parent's don't understand why I left and I haven't told them the truth because I'm too embarrassed for myself and my brother. I don't want to visit my family again, I don't know what to do. This has really made me not want to have anything to do with my family. My brother lives with our parents and I don't believe that he'll be moving out any time soon. I can't imagine even speaking to my brother again after he disrespected me that way. Was this just a drunken moment or is this just really messed up? We are both normally sane adults. I should probably add that we are only half siblings although we grew up together so we have been in each other's lives all along. We share the same mother but not the same father. I am confused! I'm in a committed relationship so I don't know why my brother would even think I would have said yes to this strange request in a million years. PLEASE Help!