My boyfriend hits me when we have fights and thats quite often.
I'm 19 and my boyfriend is 21. We started dating 9 months ago and it all started when he started getting possessive and he doesnt like me drinking. so one day i got drunk at a party and went out with another guy friend of mine just for a drive who dropped me off at my boyfriend's place, after he left my boyfriend took me to his place and hit me across the face for the first time and did it again when i asked him what did i do wrong. since then it has become his habit to slap me really hard when he gets angry during fights and even twists my arm and pulls my hair inpublic when he thinks people arent watching. The worst thing is that once i told him that i'm here only for sex,right? and he said'if that's what you think then he raped me. i kept crying and he kept doing it. we still have fights and he still slaps me and shoves me but the thing is that I DONT FEEL BAD. its like i like being submissive to him and i love him a lot and i love him acting like my husband whne he does that. I need help on what i should do