My boyfriend’s misogyny turns me on

Sounds like a great match!

Sounds vanilla as fuuuuck

I think roleplaying and stuff during sex is pretty normal, but the rest of it sounds like it is going too far.

As my dear gal pal from Boston says, "that's wicked retarded"!

Yeah right... cause women go crazy over psychopathic idiots...

Sex on the second date, him choking you, telling you that "you are going to die like a slut" and you being ok with it... I've had girls that were skittish when I wanted to hold their hand when dating and you belch this garbage out and think it's normal?!

If this is real and your psychopath boyfriend really is a wacko that wants to commit a mass shooting and violently murder women, then I'd love to put a .308 round in him, or at least smash his face in...

And needless to say, if this is real... you need to get away.

Here's a wild guess: you come from a dysfunctional family, and your father was either physically absent, emotionally unavailable, or an asshole who treated your mother, and possibly you, badly. Whichever, you didn't grow up with a male adult who cared about you, provided hugs and other healthy, loving physical contact and respected you as a person.

If that rings any bells, then it's likely that what you're doing is reliving a script that started when you were a child. Children instinctively know that they need the adults in their life to care for and about them, and they'll intuitively strive to convert distant adults into accepting, loving people. That doesn't work if the parent is a narcissist or psychopath, and it's not uncommon for the child to grow up into someone who finds a person who shares traits with the pathological figure of their childhood and then tries to do the same with them.

From how you describe the guy's behaviour, I'd guess that he probably scores high on the so-called dark triad of narcissism, psychopathy and Machiavellianism. It's not possible to have a healthy, positive relationship with such people. You say his violence and aggression is escalating, and you can be sure this will continue, very likely stopping only when you're either dead or so badly injured that external parties become aware of what's going on and step in to forcibly stop him.

Regardless of whatever hidden drives make asshats such as him attractive to you, you're incredibly fucking stupid to allow someone who is subject to uncontrollable rages and has misogynistic murder fantasies to choke you and hold a knife against you. It may be a turn-on and edgy and on-trend and yada yada yada, but it's very likely this deranged piece of shit is going to kill you.

Your life; your choice. But I think you need psychiatric help almost as much as him.

One other thing is certain: you're not going to be able to make him change. Many women are attracted to bad boys, they never change them and it never ends well.

T

I have my doubts that a woman wrote this. But I am attracted to women like this. The psycho crazy chics that are really hot. Not so big into the temper tantrums tho that seems annoying.

Once a friend with benefits wanted me to describe how I would enslave, rape, kill and dispose of her body in the span of 10 minutes as she was jerking me off. It was fucked up.... but GOD DAMN was that a good nut!