My best friend just died and i can't stop thinking about his corpse
So last week I found out that my best friend had died, he was dead for about a week before anyone found out. I was told they knew this by the state his body was in. I couldn't stop picturing his decomposing corpse, it's all I could think about. Yesterday was his autopsy and now I can't stop thinking about his body being cut open etc.
I'm ofc very sad about his death, it hasn't really sunk in yet and I'm not dealing with it well, but why do I keep picturing such morbid things about him? It's honestly making me feel like I'm a bad person.